I’m tired 

I’m tired of home 

Home is meant to be comfort, serenity 

Home is meant to soak you up with so much joy and a sense of community 

Your escape room even 

For me? Home is transactional 

You have do something to get the basic needs 

Home is exhausting 

The constant reminder of what is or what had been going into your existence 

The force to encourage one’s dream but never open to support mine 

The constant struggle to keep myself whole while both parties try to tear you apart to pick sides 

The lack of opinions, choice, proper human decency, privacy even 

The emotional manipulation

The anger! Brewing to the point of not verbally being able to express 

This isn’t the  “sweet land” it was portrayed to be 

The home in my head is worse than the one I have to bare 

All I can do is blame it on the generations and generations that were before me 

But the trauma ends with me