I finally I understood why it was so hard to leave, it wasn’t cause I loved you so much, it wasn’t because your heart was as pure as gold, it wasn’t because you made me feel like i was all you knew, it wasn’t because I was all your eyes could see. It just wasn’t .

I fought myself, I tried to deny it, I tried to fake it but I just couldn’t.

Everyday I felt myself fade away, every time I tried to make excuses for you,a part of me was ripped out of my chest. The pain was real and I tried to hide it, the tears would flow and I’d blink it away.. 

But now it’s obvious…

It’s obvious that you could see it..

You knew..you knew what you were doing to me

You knew I was caught up in your web of lies

The smiles were fake and you could see it

The kisses were light and you could feel it

You tasted different everyday 

Everyday I tasted different parts of her…

Everyday I knew where your lips had been

I knew…you touched me like you’d touch her

You looked at me and you saw her

You were hers

I had lost you..

And I didn’t want you back..

I had forgotten who you were

All I knew was what she had made you to be

A liar

It hurt to see you transform to what I couldn’t recognize..

I wondered why you wore your perfumes when you’d come home wearing hers all over you

But I got tired…

And everyday I’d wait …

I’d wait to taste a different part of her 

I’d wait to smell a different part of her

And….

I fell in love with her..

Her scent

Her shampoo

her lipsticks 

I fell in love with all her parts I got to taste 

And I didn’t want it to end

I finally understood why it was so hard to leave..

Leaving you meant leaving her…

She was all I knew……

She’s all I want now…

So don’t stop 

Bring her home everyday.