I am a complex woman, defined by a sharp and swift intellect that moves as quickly as light. I dislike slowness; in my mind, I already have a vision of how things should unfold. My speed, strength, and influence in my domain are undeniable.

Yet, I am paradoxically lazy. Despite my rapid mental processing, procrastination holds me back. My tendency to delay keeps me from taking action, constantly pushing tasks to another time.

I have a strong drive and see possibilities where others don’t, but I struggle to act on these ideas. Fear of execution and procrastination keep me from bringing them to life.

I love music and dream of playing it more often, though I have all the tools: two smartphones, data, a TV, a sound system, AirPods, and an ear piece. Still, I forget to open the apps, wrapped up in my busy life.

In love, I’m hesitant. I envision potential heartbreak before a relationship even starts. I haven’t met him yet, but I worry about how I would handle a breakup, even avoiding leaving personal items at his place to prevent emotional attachment.

I know I need to change, hoping for someone sent by a higher power to come along and save me, even as I realize the root of my issue is my own mind. I long to be free and spontaneous, yet that idea scares me. I imagine intimate encounters with strangers before knowing their names.

What if somehow I free my mind, and allowed myself to act as quickly as my thoughts do? What might I become if I embraced that speed?