A lot of things I felt I wouldn't need, I now need

A lot of things I swore to never say, I now say

A lot of thoughts I vowed to never think, I now think

I know I haven't failed myself or do I?

My struggles have been between reconciling who I was with who I am

I don't know who I am anymore or maybe I do and have refused to accept the new me.

I think nature has done it's thing and while I continue to bask in the delusion of WILL, I'm once again nature's victim.