I woke up today at exactly 9:22am. It was just like any other day. First meal of the day at 11:34am. I'm not sure the exact time the feeling came...it crept up on me till it overwhelmed me. I want to die...to die painlessly.

I open google "What is the easiest way to die". There are a lot of options... to put my generator in my room and seal the door and widows...to put helium in a bag then put the bag over my head and seal it round my neck with tape...to slit my wrists...to overdose.

But my favourite is to fill a bucket with water, take some sleeping pills, then duck my head in the bucket. The sleeping pills will put me to sleep and the bucket filled with water drowns me in my sleep.

Me: walks into a pharmacy

Sales rep: hello how may I help you

Me: can I get some sleeping medicine

Sales rep: sure

Few Hours Later

My Mom: screams in a loud voice.

Doctor: Time of death...9:22pm