A LETTER TO MYSELF IN 10 YEARS.

Dear Me,

I write this letter to you with so much hope, faith and a little trepidation in my heart. How are you? How are you doing? I wonder if you have figured it all out yet. 

All these fears, uncertainties and questions that I have right now. Have you gotten the answers? Are you still a little uncertain about what the future holds for you? I will choose to believe that you have it settled out, at least to an extent.

Please, be honest. What are ten years from now like? Is it all better now? Can you tell me if I am making the right decisions and choices now? Have they in any way affected how you turned out to be? I am really curious to know. There are just so many questions, so many choices and decisions to make. I want to make the right choices. There 

are so many good choices, but are they the right ones for me?

I trust that you know all the answers already. I wish I could meet you now. But I can't, I can only write to you.

For now, dear me, I have decided to just let go, surrender and trust. I have decided to hold to the scripture verse Isaiah 48: 17 which says:" I am the Lord your God, who leads you in the way you should go".

 Do you believe it is the right choice? It is the only thing I can see to do right now and I do believe it is the right choice. I do believe that you, my tomorrow are greater than me, today. The book of Proverbs 4:18 says, "The path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, which shines brighter and brighter every day until the perfect day."

It is just that sometimes I do get a little impatient. I feel that God is not working fast enough, that I must be crazy for deciding to wait for His direction when it seems that things are moving so quickly around me and I am not tapping in to maximise them. 

But, it may be a little bit difficult now, still, I have chosen to leave by faith and not by sight. Dr Linda said it's all part of

 the 'Process'. I can't escape it, so either I have a good attitude as I go through it or a bad attitude and end up prolonging it.

Anyway, dear me, which area of medical specialization did you later choose to engage in? Is it somewhere you are passionate about and derive joy in? I can't seem to find interest and enthusiasm in any for now. 

The neurosurgery clinical posting session was an absolute horror and disillusionment for me. I am sure you didn’t go on to further engage in that area. or, did you? 

Where are you able to take all those extra curricular online classes and build the brand I said I would? If you had, you should be making quite a ton of money by now.

You would be the self-sufficient person I have always dreamed of being. I wonder how it feels like, to have enough money at your disposal to take care of all your needs and still have enough to spare. I can't help but earnestly anticipate it.

Guess what, me, I got a new book yesterday." Courage to Say NO" by Wisdom Osiri. It is just exactly what I need. I am so excited and can’t wait to delve in!  I am sure you already what it's all about and hopefully, have learnt how to politely but firmly say no to some unimportant things by now.

 Also, guess who I met... oh! I hope I am not boring you. I guess I am rambling on. It's just that I have a lot to share with you, but I guess you remember them all.

Dear me, I think I will have to stop here now. I'm ten minutes behind schedule for my General surgery clinical posting classes. It’s been captivating so far and who knows, except you, of course, this may just be it for me.

I just want you to know that I love you. I am praying for you and I absolutely can’t wait to meet you right where you are.

Till I write to you again...

Yours sincerely,

Okwara Chioma.