Do you think I can have this discussion with you? I do not discuss my relationship issues with anyone but I might let you know this.

My boyfriend and I share the same birth month. It is not just a coincidence, I think it is a sign that we are meant to be. For my birthday this year, he went all out. He got me everything I requested. I knew I had to get him something memorable too for his birthday. Not that he asked or requested, it was just reciprocity of gestures.

I had planned so many gift ideas in my head. I had persuaded him not to leave for school yet- he schools in another town.

 Fast forward to his birthday week, my plans were not rock solid. I had planned to use part of my monthly allowance from home to fuel my gifts for him. I had calculated that my allowance would come in a few days before his birthday. Unfortunately, I did not get money from home rather I got promises of money coming in "soon". Soon was not enough. I got worried.

 A day before his birthday, I could barely put through feeding. I hoped that a miracle would happen from home, but nothing! I became devastated and worried. I thought about every possible way, there was no way I could get money before his birthday. My mood went down, and I became sad. I could not text him with all enthusiasm, I think I started to ruin his pre-birthday mood.

 My boyfriend's vibe went down too. I began to give him a heads-up on how I wouldn't be able to gift him presents that year. He replied with a supposed consolation " It's fine, you're all I need". I felt totally bad with his reply, I know he thought it was a consolation but it sounded all wrong to me. There was more he needed that I could give him more than myself. I just did not have the means to.

 He even sent me money to manage until my dad sent me money. I felt so utterly irresponsible at that moment.

I then decided that I was going to give him the best "moral support" I could ever give for his birthday. My mood was a no-go. I had a very hectic day at school a day before his birthday. I was tired, sad, and unresponsive. I tried to put on a fake persona but he read my mood through text. He suggested that I get some rest. The least I could do was wish him a happy birthday by midnight. If I slept then, there was no way I could do that. I discarded his suggestion and continued texting. A few minutes into the chat, he said he was going to sleep. Well, nothing could hold me off from falling asleep. We bade good night to each other. With no constraint, I slept off.

 All in all, I did not wake up until 5 am on his birthday. And by the next day, I became the 'Worst Girlfriend of the Year'. I do not think you are interested in my tale, let me stop here.