Phew! Showing up everyday ain't easy but I must complete the work I have started.

I went out today after days of trying to sleep my sadness away. Going out today really did me some good and I am must admit that I feel much better. While outside, I was already having anxiety about not showing up for day 2 (something I just started yesterday and I don dey tire, it is well).

So, how did I feel today in terms of my addiction?

I haven't really had the urge to gamble and it's just because I am really broke at the moment. I have however been feeling positive that I can fight the urge better when it comes with full force. You might wonder what is different this time around. It's basically because I am now accountable to my whole family, so there's that part of me that doesn't want to let them down.

Tonight, I am going for a vigil. My mum has ensured that we fight this addiction in the spiritual realm to go alongside with every other form of therapy we are currently adopting for my case. I am down for anything at the moment as far as I get better. I also recognize the role God has a played in my life and believe that He is giving me another chance, so I want Him to walk with me on this journey.

So, that is it for today. Good night and see you tomorrow!