They say we are not our bodies, we are merely just our brains puppeteering a meat sack with a tik tok timeframe of inevitable death that awaits it. Have you ever felt like you werent in control of your body, limbs moving on its own, habits returning ten fold, never showing a sign of stopping, like fire thrown on gasoline over the fields of dry leaves?, You tell yourself "this is the last time, i'm in control, I can stop if I want to", well have you?. Dont be afraid, you're not alone, I too am faced with the same hardships of being puppeteered by my own mind; But wait, arent we our minds or are we just the sack that holds the thoughts and memories that seem to make or break us?, memories that will eventually fade away, forgotten, like they never existed?. So how do we escape the sunken feeling, the lack of control, the inability to save ourselves from ... ourselves?. Well please tell me when you have an answer, for I am still searching for a solution that never seems to reveal itself when I need it the most. I can keep on lying to myself that I am in control but truly... am I?. Am I really strong enough to hold back the demons, the thoughts that hold me back from being my true self, my one ... self?. I dont know. I crave for freedom and you should too, because the longer you're in this rabbit hole, the harder it is to get out; Covered in dirt, sealed away, never to be seen again, my ... one self.