I looked at the word again, then at the second word placed beside it "Ecdysis"

It rang a bell in my head, I had heard of it somewhere, somehow, I just couldn't figure it out,then it hit me. I had a clear epiphany, at that moment.

The snake shading it's skin, I had heard that term once too many times in biology class, it was like metamorphosis, a change into something new, something even you didn't know until the new skin came.

I looked at myself again, I looked at my reflection staring at me in the mirror, was I going through that phase??

The past month of my life was a mess,a complete mess, I had broken up from a toxic relationship,it was so bad, I has attachment issues, I knew that, so I was literally broken, always in my house,never going out, just me in my little crib living in my tears and anguish. My best friend was literally tired of me, he dropped by everyday trying to make sure I was fine but never forgetting to add "I have never seen you sober about any person you've dated, why does it have to be that brat now" he didn't know, he couldn't understand. I guess when you fall too hard for someone, then you get to really understand how bitter sweet love really is.

That night was not any different, he came in with his party mood to drag me out of the house again.

"Bruhhh!!! You look like shit, and tonight you ain't telling me no"

And in minutes,we were at a club,I was sipping wine trying not to get too sober again, then I saw her.

I never believed in love at first sight, but what I felt that night, I couldn't even find a word on Google to replace it. And i think she felt it too, because the way she danced towards me, told me I had found my "Her"

"Well hello beautiful, would you like to dance" I don't think I heard the words right. Her voice was clearly as melodious as the heavens had described the songs of angels.

That night went fast, from dancing and flirting, to her stealing a kiss from me, and creating sparks I had never felt before in my belly. I've fallen in love quite a number of times, but none can explain this feeling.

And the next we were at her room making love, gentle passionate love. It wasn't just a one night stand or flings. This was different, so different in ways I didn't even understand. I had always somehow being in control of my life, but with her, she was like a rollercoaster and i didn't know what feeling to expect next or even what do expect next.

My phone beeped, and I looked at the mirror again shifted away from my thoughts, I looked at the phone and it was a voicemail from her, I guess I was too in my thoughts to hear the phone ring.

"Hey baby, I closed from work early today, would you like to go on a date, don't you dare say no, I've scheduled a place already, I'll be at your place by five, put on something sexy for me, love you honey buns"

I looked at the article I was reading again about the word, the word I had feared so much to say. I starred at the mirror again and this time I smiled..

Well I am going through ecdysis, and I am becoming a beautiful Queer woman.