Sorrow sorrow sorrow

As I watch my beloved

Kiss another woman,

Watching as he fought

With her flowery dress

Striping it down her feet in our matrimonial space,

Gazing at her intently, 

Like a predator watching 

It's prey, laying her slowly

On the bed as he worship

Her feet to her bosom.

giving her a Deep

passionate kiss

Of longing and desire.

A desire of the body and soul

Lost in her lustful enchanting

Eyes and physic like that 

Of a goddess.

Sorrow sorrow sorrow 

As I can do nothing for I fear

The outcome of my outcry

And what could go wrong 

If I voice out my anguish.

Locked in the wardrobe

Watching the intense heat

Of intimate romance, 

Created a hot atmosphere

That burns in my heart

Despite the cold whether

Of the night

I wish i was blind,

I wish i was blind to

Witness such moment,

I wish i was deaf not to

Hear the sound of her

Soft moans of pleasure,

I wish i was beautiful enough

Perhaps attractive

To keep my man 

From lusting over 

Another woman

What did I do wrong?

Where's my fault?

Why do I feel so much pain?

Why does my heart feel so 

Heavy like a Lifeless mortal?

Why do i want to cry 

But got no tears left?

My eyes are left with no

Tears to weep out the 

agonizing misery and 

hate that engulfed me

Worst of all is,

Why do I still love him?

Why does my heart 

Crave for him more than ever

I want to despise him

But I can not bring myself to,

I want to hate every

Fiber of him but my heart

Seems so compassionate

Why me?

Why do I have to go through this?

Sorrow sorrow sorrow

For I crave a man who 

Doesn't adore me,

Sorrow sorrow sorrow

That I hate myself for 

Loving thou who despise me

Sorrow sorrow sorrow

For I can do nothing but 

Watch and wait for my demise

Or a day he'll look me in

the eyes With desire, lust

and undeniable Passion,

As he does to the other woman, 

Hoping for a day he will 

Acknowledge my presence

And the longing my soul had 

Endured and waited for

Sorrow sorrow sorrow 

I'm afraid I'll never

experience that 

Day, for it seems a fantasy.

“Hold on, am I hallucinating?

If I feel so much pain

Why then did I stay?

Why is my shadow

Still wandering this place?

I can leave if I want to

Why am I not miles away

From this place?

Why do i still believe

I could find happiness here

Despite the cruelty

thrown at me.

With utter disrespect and

Disregard of my feelings

What's keeping me here?

What am I so scared of?

Why am I afraid to leave

When there's absolutely

No reason to stay?

Am I obsessed?

No! I'm not.

Hope, Hope is it

The hope of uncertainty,

The hope of what 

could go wrong or right

The hope of waking up

And wishing it was 

All a dream.

Hope kept me here

Hope kept me waiting

To be set free from myself,

From the cage of pain, 

Regret and fear of 

What could unfold

In the future.

Hope is turning me into a

Prisoner in the cell of my making.