Dear Lover,

This is my final letter to you, so I want you to read this carefully, word for word, line by line, take your time to understand and digest each sentence. I enjoy writing to you and I’m gonna miss that

Do you know what really attracted me to you?

Asides from the first time I saw you and wanted to just drown in your eyes, the first time I had the opportunity to speak with you, you were bubbly and full of life and funny and I was like “where the fuck have you been????!!!!” 

Your free and lively spirit is what draws me closer, remember that time we went out for drinks and you were like what is thisss and complimenting my outfit and saying I didn’t warn you so you could have worn shoes too lol, such a lovely memory. Also it was very kind of you to drive me to go get water that night, you saved my life ❤️

Having drinks with you that day felt really good, I’ve been on several dates and it’s the only one I ever really felt like myself and the only one I ever kissed my date on a first date… I have never experienced such chemistry…i was on fire..

You’ve grown cold and withdrawn since then, I have seen how hard you work and I really appreciate you. I hope your plans come into fruition. ❤️

Did you get my letter? The one I wrote in the first few pages of the notepad I gave you.

Asides from you ending things through text which in my opinion seems cowardly by the way. Lol grow an extra pair of balls my love, the same way you did the first time you spoke to me. Oh yeah your audacity that night was such a turn on 🤣 never experienced a rizz like that and it’s part of what makes you special to me.

I respect your decision of no kissing or anything but have you seen your lips? And do you have a mirror? Do you use this mirror? Have you seen your body 😩😩…ah no o! you’re such a good kisser, your lips are so soft and I enjoy kissing you, remember that night I was tipsy and I kept talking about how I wanted your lips 😩😩🙈 I could kiss you forever. Every time i think of you or set my eyes on you, my heart pounds, guyyyy i burn for you… I wanna wrap my legs around you and grab your butt and feel you all over with my fingers while you are inside of me and pleasuring me, I want to kiss your nipples just because I know you like it. I say your name when I use my toy. I didn’t know I could be this much of a slut till I met you! wow! 🌚🤣

I keep replaying the memory of that afternoon at yours when I had my lips on your nipples while you were inside of me and you kept telling me to suck your nipples and calling me baby (yeah that was fun, so much fun) I imagined having so much fun with you, and it’s sad we didn’t get to laugh as much and have so much fun as I imagined. But damn, all those memories are gonna be kept and treasured…

I remember the night I spent at yours, I know we had a little friction that day but I don’t think I’ve ever been touched so gently, You were tired yet gentle with me, it was almost as if you were making love to me, you kissed my forehead then my lips, I felt safe, I felt treasured and I wanted to live in your arms forever.

As much as all of this is true and they trigger my feel good hormones..as I’d be a fool if I didn’t break my rules.

My feelings were hurt and I felt disrespected by some of your behaviors especially when I realized you were ignoring me…

I felt disappointed about how the entire event played out cos I expected better from you.

I thought we were on same page, I mean we were seeing each other albeit casually, I didn’t expect you would be ignoring or not be able to communicate effectively.

I just wanted to see you and couldn’t keep my cool, you were like the candy store to my toddler, I even made a video of me showering, which I deleted (after I saw you with your friend) I just wanted to call you daddy while you make me your slut..

I saw you on the 25th when your visitor arrived and you came to pay for their cab, I didn’t have to find out like that that you were ignoring me. It hurt my feelings. And to think I had been trying to see you in a long time, my whole world came crashing and I was pissed as hell..  I want you to apologize.

Then to add ovulation to it, my hormones were firing up..I would have burnt the world.

I was all messed up for two days.

I was gonna ask if you could make adjustments or if you would rather we ended things. But I didn’t need to send you the note after I saw your text..

I don’t do mind games and that’s what being an adult is ; having all the difficult conversations.

So yeah I really appreciate and value what we shared and i can’t promise I won’t try to kiss you if I’m left alone with you. (I’m sure I already gave myself away and you really should check that playlist 🤭)

But above all I wouldn’t wanna be friends without getting all of this out of the way…

Also we don’t have to lose each other, cos I meant every word I ever said, and if in any way I have fucked whatever we had going on up, I’m willing to make amends. But if you insist, your wish is my command my love.

So on a clean slate: here’s to friendship ❤️ and if you reconsider I would be glad.

And Thank you, I won’t be letting go of the good memories in a very long long time.(if I ever let go of them)

I’m glad I met you W, I’m really glad I did 🥰🫂🫂

Also I wanna thank you for bringing out the best in me. You made me discover and explore an awesome side of me. Come kiss me one last time next week at the very same place you first did and on the same day of the week… I’ll be there for 8pm, I’ll wait for you; 

And according to these words by Coldplay in “Biutyful”

I hope that you get everything you want in this beautiful life

Change for your pocket, someone for the night

I hope they name you a rocket and take you for a ride for free

And if they tell you you’re nothing, maybe you’d explain : to me you’re the summer sun after rain, and you were there when I needed something for the pain.

Cos when you love me, I’m nowhere else, I’m on top of the world.

P.S 

I updated the playlist.. added more songs, like a burger 🤭 added on the top 🙈and the bottom.

I love you W ❤️ you’re unforgettable.

You will never be lost on me..