I felt it again today

The stark contrast between you and I

It never ceases to amaze me

That I became so insecure

That everything I do will be geared

Towards hiding, seeking and failing

I don't know who to be mad at

Her, you or me

I know I say I understand

But I don't

Why? How? When? No! Please!

I need a time machine

One that goes so far back in time

To a place before before me

To a time I could smell the flowers

And not wonder where it all went wrong

Oh yes I think you know

Who I'll blame next

Its Him! Or was it Him?

It could have been Him

Might have been Him

Oh wait it could actually be me

I'm back to where i started

To the lonesome tear that falls

Out through one eye severally

I'm envious, j want yours

But I think I want mine better, harder

I need it or I'll lose it

Please forget I said anything

I only wish i didn't need you