Dearest Gentle Reader,

This is an un-adulterated write up because I do not know exactly what I’m about to write about, well let’s say I’m going to tell you how I feel.

I’m suffering from a heart-ache, it’s a situation where I need answers, there’s alot of questions in my head and only one person can give me an answer. Tell me, what do you do when the person who holds all the answers to your questions refuses to speak?

low-key you know the answers but do you?

I mean they’re different point of views, humans see things differently and I want to understand the other party’s feelings and know what he thinks but he doesn’t want to speak.

His silence is so loud, it’s speaking clearly to you, giving you all the information you need but then you want to doubt it, you want to genuinely believe you’re wrong because who knows you like him even though you don’t want to admit it to yourself.

You find yourself reading the old texts, the old emails and you genuinely remember how it felt, surreal! You had never met a thing or person as good as he was then suddenly, just suddenly he changes. Now my beloved reader, when people change its kind of slow right? Like a process. How then do you explain a switch up? How do you explain to yourself that your fairytale didn’t end in “and they lived happily ever after”.

How long does this go on??