You'll hurt and it doesn't stop. You'll want to die but have no follow through. You'll realise it's not yet as bad as it can be and you're just overreacting. Drink water it's good for your health. Buy clothes and wear them. Don't keep them for special occasions. I wish you knew that when it comes to your life compromise is not acceptable. You'll make bad choices and it's okay. Just try not to kill or harm people and earth. Being kind doesn't save you from wickedness. And if you want to eat do so. Sometimes you'll have to take a long detour to find your dreams, if you do be selfish and hold on to it. These are things I wish I knew earlier. Right it feels like I can't get it back but I know I'll survive even if it means hating life. Everything you feared was going to happen is happening and I see no way out except for that tiny shard of light.

You'll be okay. I'll tell you later how it went.