They said, "don't give up, just keep pushing, one day you'll get there. look at your mistakes and correct them then you'll surely get your desired result, you can do this." I believed it and thought so too but now, I give up.

I tried, I looked at my mistakes, I corrected them, I believe I did better but my results don't show it. my results doin't show that I did my best or that I did well. I don't know what went wrong honestly, I prayed, I was confident, I gave it all my time and attention, I tried, I really don't know what went wrong. If it happened once then okay, but this is the third time since this second lab that I'm seeing my efforts be in vain. Is it a crime to try harder? what was I supposed to do better? I mean if I knew, it would have been better but then I don't know. I don't know why my efforts don't count.

And it's funny that I'm moving in the same pace as others but their efforts are seen in their results but mine isn't. I don't know anymore. I was determined but now I give up. If it's going to be this way then let it be.